What time is it?

Always on the clock...and loving every minute.

My older brother Neil.

The scruffy one in the middle.

http://blogs.raiders.com/tag/go-pro-bomb-squad/

Nightly thought

Farm it like you Blog it

5 hours from now

...a year ago I was moments from driving up to my rented tenant house.

Dropped foster dogs off to be neutered and went back home to tend to routine matters before work.

I pulled in the driveway and all was not good on the home front. My house was on fire.

This day would trigger the beginning of my most challenging 12 months.

Much has changed, been forgiven, been forgot, been found, been lost.

Old man Brice is no longer living.  Thinking back on a year defined by a nomadic existence, I am relieved he did not have to experience the instability.  The memory of him does not dominate my thoughts. At times its as if his brief romp through my life was imagined...but then I picture his face, see his expression and know he was real...and really loved.

Everything is different.

Everything is the same.

3 dogs and me...no longer finding but creating seeking and searching.

Catch me if you can.

Future plans!

2 days shy of homeless (again) and almost 4 months since I left my job....hundreds of miles driven over several states, sleeping in my car...and wrapping coins....À JOB OFFER, well internship/job.

This position has been in the works since early spring.  A farm to fork focused internship at Ayrshire Farm.  The first year program has shifted a bit...but for the better.  I will be extensively working with the shires and learning how to drive AND integrating them into agricultural working horses...and learning pastured based commercial raising of heritage breed cattle and swine. Certified organic, Certified Humane, etc.

Quite the opportunity!

It's been a long journey since the house fire and resigning from my previous job...but this reward is worth those risks.

http://www.ayrshirefarm.com/AyrshireFarm/AFHome.html

Holy ruptured ovarian cyst!

Have any of you ladies experienced a ruptured ovarian cyst?

Love to hear your experience if you feel comfortable.

On Saturday after about 12 hours thinking I was experiencing normal (horrible) menstrual cramps my pain worsened severely.  My body, especially abdomen, hurt to the touch and I felt pain throughout my body up to my collarbone ans neck.  I was unable to stand straight and could not walk more than a few feet without feeling like I would faint...which I did.  Knowing something was seriously wrong between the pain level, cold sweats, and inability to walk w/o collapsing...off the the ER I went.  Thank God my bf was available to drive me there avoiding the stress and anxiety of calling 911 and being transported by ambulance.  Not having health insurance this wasn't an easy decision, but at the time I though I might be dealing with appendix issues which can become live threatening if not treated immediately.

Turns out a cyst on my left ovary ruptured twisting my ovary, leading it to enlarge 4 times its normal size...and releasing blood and other fluids into my body.

Ouch.

Decided not to go the surgery route. 

Hello painkillers!

Freaking ovary.

Cry, battle cry, cry

Repeat